Conflicted

She feels so left out, but she's too strong to weep 
does anyone even give a damn.
or are they just putting an upfront charm?
She can't help wondering the same thing for weeks

Although friends are always by her side,
To whom can she actually trust to confide?
Perhaps everyone,
yet again maybe not even one.

She can't help but wonder,
it may just be better being a loner,
Then she thinks back of the fun times
and she starts to smile.

She's torn between,
happiness and sadness
which will be the side that wins?
A debate starts and her head's in a mess

A conclusion she'll never come to,
Cheers herself by blasting the stereos with beats to dance to
She'll just bite back retorts and tears,
Always being in a dilemma, just isn't for her

Why does she even care about all this?
Can't she just live life as it is?
head on her shoulders and feet firmly on the ground
Maybe she should stop caring so much about people around

All this said and done,
She's sort of on her own
pick herself up, from all the bits and pieces on the ground
get herself together and act like nothings wrong

No use being sad and moody
She takes a deep breath and takes it easy
Drowns herself with her favourite songs
Cause come on, it's just life and life goes on...


Signing out,
outcast

Dancing, catchy music, dramatic storylines = A Bollygood time!

It's amazing how my whole life I've had an interest in Bollywood movies and I’m not even Indian, Haha! When I was younger, as long as there's a television I would sit down quietly and enjoy the show. I would sit down and watch Hindi movies on the weekends and when I went back to grandpa's house during the holidays, my cousins and aunts will be sitting in front of the TV, watching the special holiday screened Hindi movies and I would join them. We would laugh when we see the funny dance moves and cry when the hero "dies" only to be "undefeatable" in the end.

What makes me interested in Hindi movies? Well could it be the catchy and sometimes funny synchronised dance moves, or could it be the vivid representation of their culture in the movies produced or how about the beautiful storyline spun by marvellous writers. In fact it is all of these that make me love Bollywood. And as I got older, well I can’t deny the fact that I found most Bollywood actors to be hunky and oh so, tall dark and handsome! *wink*

John Abraham

There was a time when I was a child around 5 years old, I would go crazy over Shah Rukh Khan, just because he was so suave in those movies he acted in. I even pestered my mum to get me a cassette of his songs (Yes cassette, there were no CD’s back then... gawd I feel so old!)  only to find out later on that it wasn’t him singing all those songs, boy was my little naive heart, broken. My first favourite Hindi movie has got to be “Kuch Kuch Hota Hai’ oh the fun we would have in school making fun of the dancing and the title. My friends and I will hide behind the wooden pillars in school, slowly peep out from behind it, nod our heads from side to side while singing “kucha kucha hota hai”  and we would collapse on the ground laughing hysterically. Also not to forget the melodious chanting of "Tumpah Se Air" (the song 'Tum Pase Aye' in 'Kuch Kuch Hota Hai') whenever water is spilled. "Tumpah" in Bahasa Malaysia means "Spill" and "Air" means "Water".

Though years have passed, and the hype of Hindi movies has sort of “left the country” my love and appreciation for Hindi movies hasn’t faltered. In fact I grew to appreciate and enjoy the different stance Hindi movies take on in the world of media. For example, unlike all those common American or English movies, every Hindi movie is a musical with catchy meaningful songs and most of the time brilliant choreography. Dance numbers of Hindi movies has evolved through the years and no longer comprise of just running around, hiding behind trees and rolling down hills, but instead has incorporated hip hop, ballet, and modernised some original ‘bollywood moves’ how international of them. Well well, talk about international standard, that has definitely been achieved by Indian films. Another interesting thing about Hindi movies is that nothing is impossible no matter how ridiculous it might be. Flying cars, Indestructible heroes, karate moves that beats even Shaolin monks, you name it and Bollywood has made it happen!
 
Furthermore their sense of humour has the tendency to make you laugh till you cry. There’s humour in every genre and you’ll be laughing about something or other may it be crazy antics by possessive mothers, warm loving fathers, best friends who can never do anything right or even something as simple as a facial expression. Need a laugh? I suggest you pick up movies like ‘Golmaal Returns’, ‘Dostana’ or even ‘Kambakkht Ishq’. Besides that, the romance is just wow! The way Bollywood movies are written makes you fall head over heels for the hero and wish you were that lucky beautiful girl in the movie instead of just being a mere spectator. Movies like ‘I Hate Luv Stories’, ‘Jab We Met’ and ‘Pyaar Impossible’ will leave you with many "awww" moments and that fluttery feeling in your stomach.

However, don’t underestimate these movies to be just ridiculous, funny or having no ‘substance’. You’d be surprised, try ‘3 idiots’, ‘Aashayein’, ‘Fanaa’, ‘Paa’, ‘Rang De Bansanti and ‘Paathshaala’ there are some scenes that can really leave you in tears, some just leave you inspired and some makes you want to make a change in your lives. That’s another reason I admire Bollywood, they manage to make entertaining movies that grasps the viewers and at the same time incorporates love, culture and some serious issues too.

 
 
Now if only Malaysian movies could be the same. Well, we’re getting there, but it’s a painfully slow journey to the top. The glory of Malaysian movies seems to have died with the legends. P.Ramlee, you will always be an inspiration and an example to follow.  Don’t get me wrong, we do have some wonderful movies in the modern times like ‘Sepet’ and ‘Papadom’ but most of the movies produced nowadays aren’t even worth watching unless you like watching annoying ‘mak ciks’ (aunts/ old ladies) trying to be young and talking in an exaggerated foreign accent, unfaithful husbands who legally marries 3 wives and unbelievably funny ghosts/ monsters. Gradually we are improving and I do hope we improve more, and who knows one day in the future they’ll be someone blogging (or whatever futuristic social thought-sharing technology) about Malaysian movies and how it touched and became a part of their lives. I’m dreaming of that day to come and if only I can be a part of it *dreamy smile*

Signing out,
Bollyfied   

It's never too late!

Just finished sprucing up my blog. A new year a new layout and style.... and yes I do know I'm a month late, yea yea... but it's never too late to start and better late than never!

I just love what I've done with the new banner, it took me a while, but it seems I'm now getting better at handling Adobe Photoshop. Haha!! I take no ownership of the worm on the book, but everything else I will definitely take credit. Trust me it isn't as easy as it looks if you're a beginner... Then again it's never too late to learn am I right? Gonna need the skills for my course in college so I need all the practice I can get.

Thus I end this post by saying, I'm sleepy.... Yes nothing special.. just a simple phrase which means my eyes are closing... might be becoming slightly delirious and suffering from non-stop yawning.... It is also 6.44am and I haven't slept a wink. Oh well I guess I should sleep now... As the saying goes, It's never too late.

Signing out,
"late-bug"

Hiatus??!!

Yes It has been ages since I last posted something on this dying blog.. well for one I found a different outlet for all my ranting... MY FRIENDS!! hahaha.. they actually reply back and make me feel better and for the ranting I needed to do in the past year, a two-way rant was ideal compared to a one-way blog rant. So therefore no updates. This post is just to say that despite my lack of posting  I have yet to go insane! *insert crazy face here*

My thoughts still keep me sane, and I'm hoping to start blogging once more. Who knows it might even improve my writing style/ skills.. Which pretty much died ever since I left High School. Sad right? I know...

So I now declare my "un-blogging" days OVER!! Ermmm... I hope... *insert sheepish face here* hehehe....

A Family of Friends (A time of emo-ing)

It's really been ages since I've last blogged and boy does time fly. I've been quiet only because I've just been "superdy duperdy" busy. Assignments, friends and now coming up is exams. I guess life in Curtin is in a way awesome, but then again... sometimes when shit happens it just makes me want to run home and live my life the way i used too, without all the problems I get in Uni.

However so, in Curtin, I've found a whole bunch of awesome people who I can really trust and whom I call my family. A family of friends who cares and who just takes me for who i am and I thank God for sending them into my life. Lingesh, Jiva, Sundara, Manpreet, Dilendri and Ashweny what would i do without you guys. You guys have been my rock, my comforters and the best jokers I could ever ask for. Naveen, Surin, Jaya, Jia Chyi, Eswaran and Kader, you guys have also made my semester in Curtin a fun and enjoyable experience. I'm really gonna miss you all during the 3 months break and hopefully when we are back you won't have forgotten me.


LINGU:  hahaha your proposal day OMG!! Boy was I kinda jealous, hahaha but I loved every minute of it, thank you for letting me witness something so sweet and exciting, brother you are the best!

DEE: You're the best ever girl friend I could ask for in Curtin. you're always there for me through thick and thin ^_^ ur like a  sister to me and btw "mama oyata aderei"!! Hehehe... Know that i'm always here for you too and the funny sasau moments we have together this semester, hopefully we can have the same next semester and cross my fingers we'd be in the same house that;ll be just awesome.

A family of friends

PREETI: SISTA!!! hahaha... you're just the most adorable sister, we have about the same thinking and that's just sasau hahhaa.. you're always there when I need a friend, or a shoulder to cry on. We'd we talking about hindi movies and when I'm pulling an all-nighter you'd be online accompanying me somehow haha... the jokes we share and the fun awesome moments like JCW we had this semester is just priceless.. Thanks so much my sis, I'm gonna miss you this 3 months break and hopefully when I'm back you won't have forgotten me and we'll have many more priceless moments next semester ^_^

JIVAAA: you "baby-haired", photogenic cutesy you! hahaha... you're always there when anyone is in need of company and you're just the sweetest blur-est friend I could ever ask for, always making me laugh and keeping me company and letting me do the weirdest things (play with your hair and being your paparazzi) I'm gonna miss your funny reactions for 3 months hahaha...

SUNDARA: Dear brother, the big brother, the poet and the sasau-est in the group. Thanks for the jalan-jalan time and for all the advice you've given me. Heck I dunno how crazily "emo" I would be without you and your comforting advice. The times when I was feeling the worst, you'll always be there asking "kenapa hang muka panjang?" hahaha and you'll listen to my problems no matter how annoying it can get at times (yes I know and I'm sorry ^_^) and at the end there'll always be a totally cool sounding quote that relates to the situation. Awwww gonna miss you this 3 months brother!

ASH: Dei dei deiiiiii... sorry no picture, as I have yet to take a good picture of you. hahaha sad right? I should stalk you one of these days and take a picture of you at your best. You're just the best awesomest housemate ever!!! Hahaha.. my shoulder to cry on, and a dear dear friend. Know that even if we're not in the same house next semester, I'll still be nearby so just knock on my window or gimme a call, anytime. I won't forget that night I knocked on your door and ended up crying about something totally stupid and you blasted me for it hahaha that set me straight. Dei what on earth wud I do without you in villa, god knows... and besides that, I'll always remember your yummy cooking hehee... cook again for me next semester okay!? Sooo gonna mmiss you this 3 months.  ^_^

My family of friends, take care for now. Study hard for exams, and after that lets enjoy our last days together for this semester. We'll meet up again next semester for more sasau, priceless and fun adventures together. All the best, well wishes, stay healthy and God bless! Love you guys always. and deiii I'll always be online and will be in Curtin or nearby to listen and to comfort and to keep you guys company like what you guys have been doing for me. ^_^ Cheers...

Should I Be Proud or Stressed Out?

10.30am on the 13th of July, I accompanied my aunt to her clinic appointment. While waiting for her I took the liberty to read 'The Star' newspaper and I came across many interesting articles, some made me laugh and some made me think "what on earth is wrong with today's world.." but those stories I'll save for a later post.

For now however I shall explain to you why my latest post is titled as such. In the newspaper I came across a list of the 18 "excellent" public and private university colleges in the country. These colleges are rated tier 5 (so far no college is rated tier 6 which is the the highest rank) and here's the list in alphabetical order :

1. Curtin University of Technology Sarawak
2. International Islamic University Malaysia
3. International Medical University
4. Management and Science University
5. Monash University Sunway Campus
6. Sunway University College
7. Swinburne University of Technology, Sarawak Campus
8. Taylor's University College
9. The University of Nottingham, Malaysia Campus
10. Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia
11. Universiti Kuala Lumpur
12. Universiti Malaya
13. Universiti Multimedia
14. Universiti Putra Malaysia
15. Universiti Sains Malaysia
16. Universiti Teknologi Malaysia
17. Universiti Teknologi Mara
18. Universiti Teknologi Petronas
Note the one highlighted... that's the college I'll be attending, doing a foundation in Mass Communications.

Curtin University of Technology Sarawak Campus

 When I attended the pre-departure briefing last Friday I was told that studying in Curtin will not be easy and I shouldn't expect to pass easily without MUCH effort. The passing mark is high and expectations on the students are higher. Therefore my dilemma... I have always had a problem with studying, may it be revising or doing exercises. My attention span for studying is about as long as the attention span of a year old baby....okay so I'm exaggerating a little. I'd say the longest I can actually focus on studying with no distractions is for just half an hour not more. See my problem??? Hopefully I'll be able to concentrate more as I have the interest and the passion for anything 'mass com'. My future depends on me hitting the books and not to fiddle as Rome burns.

So conclusion.... am I proud or stressed out?

Well as for now I'm proud that I'll soon be attending one of the top tiered colleges in Malaysia! It's a blessing and a golden opportunity and I pray to God that I won't waste this chance of a lifetime. I'll be leaving for college on the 28th of July and Orientation starts on the 2nd of August and I'll only be back home in December for semester break... Ok come to think of it... maybe I am a little stressed out... Eeek HELP!!

It Was There All Along....

So I checked out my friend's blog today and I noticed a cool widget on his that says 'Reactions:' then there's 'cool', 'interesting' and 'funny'. Being a total noob at blogging (proof is how much I've written on my blog) and its settings, I busted my brains trying to figure out how on earth can I get that 'Reactions' thing for my blog. I googled, searching all over the web for it and finally I came to a blog that could help me. When I read the instructions on how to get it i got confused. It took me ages to finally figure out that it was in the 'design' tab and under 'page elements' all I had to do is click 'Edit' on the part that says 'Blog Posts'. I did that and voila all my posts now has the reactions thing. Oh gawsh and to think I spent wasted minutes (almost half an hour) looking all over for it on Blogger and Google when it was there all along! So if you're like me (i doubt it) and you're trying to look for the reactions thing for your blog. Save some of your precious time and just do what I described....

Chivalry ISN'T Dead!!

It doesn’t really take much to make a girl feel happy and appreciated. I guess in some ways you can say girls are actually simple creatures. Hah! Who am I kidding, we're the most complex of all God's creations, in my own opinion, I think that sometimes we might not even understand ourselves.... Yes, we are that complex. But one thing that I dare say though, is that every woman/girl appreciates a little bit of chivalry every now and then. It makes us feel nice and it puts a smile on our face, can't really explain why, but it just does.

A few months ago when I was at the bakery with my mom, I saw a young man exiting the shop and there was an old lady who was walking slowly towards the exit. Now this frail looking old lady really had her hands full with her shopping and on top of all that the glass door was quite difficult to open. I expected the boy to hold the door open for her, since he knew she was leaving and he was already standing there anyway, why not spare a few minutes helping her hold the door open. Even if he didn’t have a few minutes to spare, he could have just opened the door wide enough for it to stay open. Instead he pushed the door open, went out and immediately let go of the door which swung back and almost hit the old lady, who luckily backed up in time to avoid getting hit in the face. Since I was just standing there doing nothing, I quickly went up to her and helped open the door for her. She smiled and thanked me. Randomly that incident came to mind and it got me thinking, why can’t men be a little more considerate and nice to women? Is it true that Chivalry is dead?

Thank goodness I can say and I do have proof that it is undoubtedly not dead. It’s just nearing extinction. Yesterday morning I had accompanied my mother to the bank and I was lagging behind as I was replying to a text message, so by the time I reached the door she was already inside. A young man pushed the glass door open just as I was going to go in so I stopped and let him pass. I was expecting him to let go of the door and I was prepared to grab it if it swings back. But the kind and if may I add, good looking (Abigail would at this point say gigglesnort) man just stood there, held the door open for me and gave me a smile and a nod. I thanked him and hurried inside and I was quite surprised and a little flustered by his actions; I mean come on, how often does a guy hold a door open for me? Let me answer that….Very rare and hardly ever happens….

So for all guys who are in a relationship, try being chivalrous once in a while. Hold the door open for her, offer to carry her bag when she’s shopping (it does not make you look gay) and offer her your jacket when it’s cold. She’ll appreciate the gestures and will love you more for it. Don’t believe me? Try asking any girl you know and see what she says about it. Girls tend to envy other girls whose boyfriends treat them like princesses. Don’t get me wrong, you don’t have to pretend to be a perfect gentleman; nobody likes that, if you don’t already know. Just be yourself because there’s nothing worse than a fake. For the guys who are not in a relationship at the moment, there is no harm in being chivalrous too. Just consider it as practise for when you do get a girlfriend. When it all comes down to it, Chivalry is not just about opening doors and helping to carry bags. It's a whole attitude of treating someone with the respect and dignity they deserve. So it shouldn’t be that hard and it shouldn’t be limited to girlfriends and dating….Right?

Interviewers trying to be cool

Just recently, I've been thinking.... why do some interviewers think It's cool or right to tease the interviewee? Well maybe a little teasing is alright but most of the time it just goes too far. For example, just this morning I was tuning in to a radio station to hear my fellow friends on air. I was annoyed by the interviewer who made some jokes that can be considered quite insulting. I mean is it right to say things like, "I know people your size will....", "Oh changing yourself...you mean your clothes?" that's only the few that I can mention right now. However this is not the first time I've heard interviews of this sort. There is a reason for the interview in the first place, it could be for promoting something or for getting to know a person. So why should the interviewee be belittled just because the interviewer wants to act cool or feel almighty (due to whatever reason).

In my opinion, I'd rather hear an informative interview that isn't too serious nor too playful. There should be a balance between the two, keeping the interview light with a few teasing jokes and keeping the insulting comments to a bare minimum. Even if you're the best interviewer in town with the best show on air, I think people will think thrice before agreeing to an interview with you. I mean come on! who on earth do you think you are? Interviewees try not to fear interviews from hell, heck maybe sometimes you just gotta butt in and drag them "high and mighty" interviewers back to earth. For example.....

Interviewer: So (*insert name here*) since we're talking about food, I'm sure you have lots of favourite dishes here in town, I mean look at you *laughs jokingly* do tell us.
Interviewee: Thank you for that biting comment, I didn't know (*insert purpose of interview
here*) had anything to do with my size *says politely and sweetly* well I do have lots of favourites as you just said.......


Question to you that's reading this rambling of mine, would you actually prefer listening to something that is full of crap due to all the insulting comments and jokes or would you listen to something light, entertaining and informative? Oh and comments most welcome as always...

I'm too busy being bored instead of studying for mock

As the title reads... yes I am too lazy to care about my future.... *gasp* dear God I've really got to hit the books. But for now, well..... maybe a little bit of venting and rambling on my blog will help curb my boredom.

I think I'll update on what I've been up to recently. Yesh that sounds good, since it's been ages since my last update. Well I'll just start with the next post....

Gone is the King of Pop

All bow your heads in the remembrance of the King of Pop. May you rest in peace Michael Jackson. Your songs will be remembered for years and years to come.


Michael Jackson collapsed at a rented home in Los Angeles. Jackson's personal physician attempted to resuscitate him. The Los Angeles Fire Department responded to a 911 call and arrived 9 minutes later. Jackson was reportedly not breathing and CPR was performed. Jackson remained in a coma and died shortly after arrival at the UCLA Medical Centre. Jackson was pronounced dead at about 2:26 pm local time and the cause of death is currently believed to be cardiac arrest.

Jackson's death caused an outpouring grief among fans not seen since the death of Elvis Presley and John Lennon two other legends that have gone before him. Fans created a shrine at the old Motown headquarters now the Motown Museum, outside Hitsville U.S.A in Detroit.

A little tidbit about our dear King of Pop:

Michael Joseph Jackson, born August 29, 1958 and is the seventh child of the Jackson family. He debuted in the professional music scene at the age of 11 as a member of the Jackson 5. He's well known for his ever changing features from year to year and unbeatable dance moves. He popularized the dance moves that we call the moonwalk and the robot.

His songs like "Beat it", "Pretty young thing", "ABC (with the Jackson 5)", "Billie Jean", "Black or white" and "Smooth Criminal". His work and distinctive style has influenced many singers to date. He has 3 children, Michael Joseph Jackson, Jr. (also known as "Prince"), a daughter, Paris Michael Katherine Jackson and Prince Michael Jackson II (also known as Blanket). He is the ultimate performer and the world might not see anything like him ever. His legacy shall live on.

100 truths (stole from FP)

So I saw this on FP's blog and thought why not steal it, lol. Who's FP you ask. Well.. naver you mind :P

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Lychee ice
2. Last phone call: Mum
3. Last text message: Lame Digi messages
4. Last song you listened to: I'm listening to music right now soo... umm right now its Differently
by Cassie Davis
5. Last time you cried: Umm i cried when i watched that one movie, ummm a few days ago.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Oh yea sure... (sarcasm) :P
7. Been cheated on: Don't think so....
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Never
9. Lost someone special: I guess I have, but now that someone ain't so special come to think of it
10. Been depressed: Tons of times. I'm a pretty emotional girl :P
11. Been drunk and threw up: Never been drunk and never threw up.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. black
13. blue
14. purple

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yup
16. Fallen out of love: Mhmm.. I guess... lol
17. Laughed until you cried: Sure I have, who hasn't?
18. Met someone who changed you: Not sure, I don't think I've changed at all
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yup sure did
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes. Ooh this reminds me of a quote
"love me or hate me you're still thinking about me"
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Hahahaha... nope
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Well... which friends list??
23. How many kids do you want?: Oooh... I haven't thought that far.. umm.. 3?
24. Do you have any pets: Yup, my pretty fishes in the fish tank, lol
25. Do you want to change your name: Yeah sure I WANTED to but my name is kinda a part of
me now so I'm sticking with it.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Movies with mah buddies!
27. What time did you wake up today: 8am-ish
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Chatting with mah kitteh and learning to make
a watermark
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Owning a BMW convertible, I can't wait for that I
want it like now!!!
30. Last time you saw your Mother: Half an hour ago and I'm gonna see her again in a few
minutes *looks at the clock*
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Eating too much in Primary
school, hahaha...
32. What are you listening to right now : I'd come for you - Nickleback
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yup, Aussie exchange student, lol *cough
cute cough*
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Nothing, I'm totally fine and maybe a lil hyper
35. Most visited web page: Google
36. Whats your nickname: Jo, Josey, Jose, Pin, Kepin, Josie, JJ, Joeyna and Sephin
38. Relationship Status: Single and not really looking, hahaha
39. Zodiac sign: Cancer
40. Male or female?: Female
41. Primary School?: I did 6 years of it
42. Secondary School?: In my final year
43. High school/college?: Going next year
44. Hair colour: Brownish when i was a kid now its black
45. Long or short: collar-length
46. Height: 154cm yeah yeah I'm short!
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Kinda yea... :P
48: What do you like about yourself?: Everything that counts
49. Piercings: None at all *shudders at the thought of getting one*
50. Tattoos: One day i'd get that temporary ones that last like a month or so, hahaha
51. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Never Thank God!
53. First piercing: none
54. First best friend: Jackson, lol I was in Kindi with him
55. First sport you joined: Badminton
56. First vacation: Santubong Beach Resort
58. First pair of trainers: Cute lil baby trainers. I think i still got em somewhere....

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: No
60. Drinking: A few hours ago
61. I'm about to: Finish this post
62. Listening to: Music
63. Waiting on: Him to appear in my life. hahaha... random. Don't listen to that I'm just being
dramatic :P

YOUR FUTURE
64. Want kids?: Sure...
65. Get Married?: Only to HIM, whoever HE is lool
66. Career?: Journalist? Goshh I hope so If not I'll go into teaching
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: What I can't have both? :P
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: Mentally mature but younger looks
71. Romantic or spontaneous: What kind of question is that! Both of course ;)
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice everything
73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive and the occasional loudness
74. Hook-up or relationship: RELATIONSHIPS
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: A balance of both

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: Never
77. Drank hard liquor: Beer, Vodka, Chardonnay, red wine, irish cream, Bailey's cream
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Never
79. Sex on first date: Never and never will gahhh
80. Broken someone's heart: Probably....
82. Been arrested: Nope
83. Turned someone down: Nah.... I hope not uh oh
84. Cried when someone died: I am human, of course, but for the record I don't wail.
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yup sure have...

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Yes
87. Miracles: Yes
88. Love at first sight: not really
89. Heaven: Yes
90. Santa Claus: No
91. Kiss on the first date: Depends on the moment
92. Angels: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Nope
95. Did you sing today?: Yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Nope
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: Just far enough to alter a few things
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: Nothing comes to
mind
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Not if it's the right person a.k.a HIM, lol
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: ummm.. I added something after that hope its ok

Bored = posting pictures

Gosh, for someone who hardly ever updates her blog I've created a new record for myself. Haha.. Well what can I say, I'm bored..... So I've decided to post up some pics that I've taken ages ago.My niece, in the camera shop. Took this the day I bought mah baby

The view from my Aunt's hotel room. Grand Margherita Hotel, view of the river from the window. In my opinion Hilton has a better river view, hehehe I'm gonna go find that pic I took from Hilton and post it up someday.

Lol, now this is an old tiny porcelain bear in the living room. Looks kinda cool in a macro shot.

Feel free to leave a comment in the cbox. And heyyyy Farrah whatcha up to? lol Abigail how's the holiday? and Cassie Wassie whatcha up to? All studying I guess, teehee something I should be doing. Gahhh laziness

xoxo,babyJ

Watermark/copyright

Omigosh!! I finally figured out how to create a watermark/copymark (whichever you call it) and put it on my pictures. Haha.. yes, I know kinda lame, since I bet tons of people already knew how to ages ago. Thanks to google and a very good friend of mine, lol I won't mention names but you know who you are "cough, cough". But still I am proud of myself for not giving up too soon, as for some reason I am IT challenged. I fail at making IT stuff work sometimes. So anyways here it is, my first watermark/copyright.

This picture was taken with my baby, the Canon 1000D. Note that I did not edit anything. The only thing that is not in the original picture is the "Josey" watermark. Apart from all that, everything is original. All my friends know I suck at major editing, lol. I don't do anything other than crop my pictures and the occasional brightening. Ok more about the picture, it was taken at my Aunt's house in kampung Singgai Daun. I splashed some water on the flower to make it look cool. Honestly I never know what I'm doing when I'm taking a picture. What happens just happens. I can't even remember what I did to get that blurred effect in the background. I am 80% sure that it was sheer luck though. Haha, I don't know... don't ask :P

If you're reading this, whoever you are, lol. Would you mind leaving me a comment about this pic? Tips, if any, would be awesome and really really appreciated. Thanks a million in advance :P

xoxo,babyJ

Galaxie, oh dear Galaxie

Ok, as all of you know... Galaxie is back in the market after 2 months, and sporting a new look. I have nothing against them changing the look of the mag, but honestly I'm really not happy with the change. Here's why

1. They decreased the size of the mag.
Now why on earth would they do that? seriously their size before was just perfect. It made the mag stand out among all other mags. Now sadly they've changed to the normal boring A4 size; might even be slightly smaller than A4 for all I know. Saddening

2. The posters for the coming out issue ain't that great.
The posters featured in the new issue is not only smaller in size its also not that nice. Have you seen the posters featured before? Well, they were awesome, not so much in this issue though.

3. This isn't so important but, CHRIS BROWN is on the cover!!!
I mean excuse me! Hello.... anyone got a memo that he's a women beater?? Ok I admit that i know nothing about running a mag, but seriously.... I thought that only people you admire and respect should grace the cover of magazines. For crying out loud why is Chris Brown on the cover? if you want to make the theme CB and Rihanna then put Rihanna on the cover instead of CB. Instead CB is gracing the cover and Rihanna is a mere speck in the bottom right corner.

4. Where did the lyrics section go to??
Ok what happened to my favourite part of this mag? I used to look forward to the lyrics section in this mag all the time. I'm very disappointed to see that its not there anymore. I hope that this is only a major glitch and that the lyrics section will be back. Honestly why kill one of the best parts of the mag?

5. The increase in price.
Whoa I got ready the usual RM 4.50 to buy the new issue. When I saw it in the newsstands I grabbed it straight away, noting the size difference though. When I was gonna pay the guy looked at me and said "RM 7.00 dah naik harga dah" I was like wuuuutttt.... Whoa it went up a startling RM2.50. Seriously what happened to it being the cheapest and best magazine in the whole of Malaysia. Ok maybe they need to cover up for the whole changing their look thing, but seriously RM7.00 has it ever occurred to them that most students and adults alike love them because they're cheaper and way better than other mags. I'm one of those people but now I'm thinking twice.

That's all I can think of right now. The whole change is quite a disappointment. Saddening enough to make me hope and pray that they make slight minor changes to their whole "new look" GALAXIE what on earth have you become?

xoxo, babyJ

What has the world come to??

Jeez, seriously what has the world come to? Well for me, I have only one word to describe it...INSANITY!!!! I mean come on.... natural disasters, bombings, killings, AB-users (abusers), too much family planning (eh referring to that octo-mom. What is goin on???



Ok firstly, the bombings. Ok... for all those who know me well, you know that I really do not enjoy reading the newspaper. Why? ok that I do not know... well, I just don't nuff said. So I'm saying firstly, sorry for any mistakes that I might make and that I'm not blaming anyone, judging anyone, nor do I take credit for anything I say....what I'm saying is mainly for entertainment (mine) purposes only.



Well... there's a club notice board in school that has pictures of the victims of the recent tradegy in erm... India? Or was it Sri Lanka? Okay... so I do not know the facts, kick me. What I do know is... why would someone or anyone for that matter do something like that? The kids burried from neck to toe when they're still alive, men and women killed brutally, the scars, blood, cuts, bruises. Oh the horror when I paused for a second to look at all the pictures. I couldn't even bring myself to read the captions. Call me emo or whatever you want, but I felt sad and questions kept going through my head. Why them? Were they guilty of anything? Did it hurt when...? Do they deserve this? Does anyone deserve this? Shouldn't I be grateful it wasn't me or my family and friends? All these questions.... the cruel world, Is this the new generation? Do I want to live in this kind of generation?



Recently, I heard that there was a tsunami in Indonesia. I was like omg, seriously? That's so near to us and I didn't even know about it till someone told me. That's when I thought, okay... now I really got to take interest and read the papers more. I wonder how bad it was. Hmmm... Besides that, the bushfires in Australia and the snowing in London. Gosh London had the worst snow in years. My uncle's car got snowed in and that's like crazy.



The one news, that I do know about is the one about Rihanna. OMG, who would've guessed. Rihanna abused by Chris Brown thats like Malaysia snowing... Oh so we thought. I was really shocked when I heard bout what happened to Rihanna. I'm on her side no matter what. Thats cause, no matter what she did thats wrong or whatever,a guy should never hit a girl. That's like the golden rule of a relationship. I mean have u seen her pics after the brutal beating he gave her. I'd like to post it on here, but I dunno if I'm allowed to, legally I mean. Yeah take a look at the pics and you'll be like what the heck? Her beautiful face ain't that beautiful no more.

On a lighter note, there's an awesomely hilarious video by nigahiga on youtube. Seriously if you like comedy you really gotta check out nigahiga, Decimal brothers and Venetian princess on youtube. They are hilariously awesome. Back to the point, the video is suposedly on the real reason why Chris and Rihanna fought but really it isn't, it's just a funny video.

I'm all against women beating and violence of any kind. People, guns and beatings are never a solution to anything. They only cause more harm and nothing good comes out of it.

xoxo, baby J

Doulos Mural Day

Mhmm... another late post. I'm ashamed but this is so far the only free time that I have. So here goes....

On the 11 of December 2008, Farrah, Sabrina, Bethany, Daniella and I joined the mural painting competition at Pending, Kuching, Sarawak.The murals we painted were supposedly meant to be a welcoming thing for Doulos but we weren't allowed to be there before the ship arrived. Something about letting teenagers with tins of paint on the loose. Therefore the competition was held on the opening day.

Lining up for registration

GBA stands for "Good Books for All"

I know this is weird, but I never knew Doulos was a Christian ship. Since I was a kid I always thought that Doulos was this big ship with loads of cool books on board. Little did I know..... I was amazed to learn that Doulos actually means "Servant" in Greek. It is also known as the floating UN. They're even young children on board and they go to school on the ship, I mean... how cool is that? They get to travel all round the world. Doulos's purpose, "BRINGING KNOWLEDGE, HELP AND HOPE TO THE PEOPLE OF THE WORLD". Their core values are, loving God, Esteeming people, working as a team, serving with excellence. You see, living onboard isn't just all fun and games and travelling, you have to work too. I actually am very touched by what those on board are doing. They devoted themselves and volunteered to help people in need all around the world. I wish I had the guts to leave everything behind and live for the greater good by helping others, but sadly I don't. It shames me to say this, but I love material stuff. I wouldn't last a week without a fan, my mp3 and a television with astro. Therefore I respect and admire those onboard the Doulos. For more information on Doulos check out their website at
http://www.mvdoulos.org

Well, my whole group thought that we were going to be painting on the ship. I thought that would be impossible but then again anything can happen. So we made our way onboard and went in search of the registration area. When we didn't find it we figured that the registration would be back on the port. So we went back down the steps. Whoah don't get me started on those steps, 10 times or more a day and I'd be slim in no time, hahaha.... no seriously they're killer steps. We found the registration area and since they were still packing the goody bags they told us to walk around first. So Beth, Dani and I headed for the shade. Thats when I noticed that the white painted plywood boards along the entrance was our canvas, 2 boards for each team.

Our "canvas" of white behind us

We, thinking that the theme was culture (due to bad judgement) had already planned what to do and thinking they were going to ask questions, hid most of the meanings in the mural to save us drawing it all out and saves time. For example, the colour trails to the hand represents all the cultures in Malaysia coming together as one nation. We got the shock of our lives when we saw everyone else drawing boats and waves and even Digi people (what the.... yeah Digi, Malaysia's mobile phone coverage) We went along with the original plan anyway, because it was too late to change and we did not join to win but to enjoy ourselves (although if we did win that would've been great) So Beth and Dani went ahead and drew the guy in the mural, whom Beth decided to call Bujang in the end, and Farrah and Sabrina went along and drew their cool looking tribal art. Farrah did the bottom and Sabrina did the right. I on the other hand, sharpened a pencil, then thinking that it was a total waste of time, went digging into bags and handed all of them mechanical pencils and lead, got ready some paint and started painting the background. So I merely painted the mural and did not draw anything. The whole mural turned out well though and I'm very proud of it. It was kinda the coolest day ever.

just after we finished painting

Oh Bujang, we're so proud of you

Us posing next to Bujang

Hopefully this isn't the end of the organisation but just the end of the ship. Doulos is retiring in 2010 and I hope that there will be another vessel that will carry on the good work of Doulos.

Picture taken at the end of the competition

xoxo, babyJ

STS's Photography Club's 1st Annual Dinner.

Sorry for this is quite a late post. The dinner was ages ago, but I've only got the time now to blog about it. Ahaha the stress I remember like it was yesterday. Yikes, my hair came out in clumps everyday (i'm not joking).

The whole dinner went quite well. It didn't crash and burn (thank God) it wasn't that great either but that's ok. I am really blessed to have friends that stuck with me and Efa through thick and thin. With friends like these (Dani, Tilly, Fatin, Afiqah, Audi) we managed to pull through and made it a fun night.

Fatin, her cousin and friend jumping when the dinner ended

Apart for the wedding next door being so rowdy, with their yamseng. Shessh seriously, halfway through Mdm. Mary John's speech they started with the yamseng. It was quite funny though, because they were so loud and MJ looked shocked for a while. We can't help but laugh. Besides that, the 'Photographer of the night' contest kept the teachers and us entertained. Here's some of the contestants:

Neways, The dinner went splendidly and I'm really grateful to everyone who helped make it awesome. True friends is the best gift anyone can ask for.

Fatin, me, Tarina and Dani

xoxo,babyJ

Bring on the music!!!!

Right, my latest venture on Youtube got me in search of my latest favourite songs. In hope of finding something official and will last and not suddenly gone the next time you look for it. The first song I went in search for was Selena Gomez's "Tell me something I don't know". For some reason I can't really explain, I love this song. It's a really awesome song and Selena Gomez definately knocks out whats-her-name Milez virus *burn* I'm sorry I just don't like Miley, everyone is entittled to their own opinnion and that's mine, I don't like Miley. The song breakout only caught me cause it was actually written by Katy Perry *gasp* yeah it was. Seems that Katy also used to sing background for Miley at her Hannah concerts. There was once rumours about Selena and Hannah, oops I mean Miley, having a fued. Well that's just rumours according to them. They're really good friends. I'll leave it at that.

Well this is her song "Tell me something I don't know" it has a catchy beat to it. It is also the soundtrack to her new movie "Another Cinderella Story". Which I just bought and yeap, can't wait to watch.



Apparently, it's supposed to be a musical version of Hillary Duff's "A Cinderella Story" a few years back. Plus, it also stars Drew Seeley as a talented singer who falls for Selena. Drew Seeley, unknown to us Malaysian *I think* Is from the High School Musical Concert. Note this people.... the voice of TROY (Zac Efron) and the voice of Troy SINGING that made us swoon is actually DREW SEELEY. Well, well, who knew.... He's (Zac Efron) seems like the only guy that didn't sing in the first movie. Well at least he sang in the sequel right?? Besides the point, Drew is really good looking and a very talented singer and songwriter *did you know he co-wrote "get'cha head in the game"*, it's really great that he got a leading role in 'Another Cinderella Story'. Well, here's pictures of Drew and Selena:




I must've gone Disney crazy lately, not only have I gone bonkers over the JoBros and Demi Lovato and Selena Gomez, I went out and got two magazines on all the latest tween stars. This to my surprise includes the singers of my next favourite song 'Lost', the band Menudo. Right, if one were to google Menudo, one would find out, that it's actually a renewed band. Remember Ricky Martin?? Yeah, before he was all that.... he was singing in the band Menudo. After that Menudo flopped and wasn't heard of again. That is until now.... Menudo is back and I'm telling you it's gonna be a good comeback. Their Bandemonium Tour is already a huge success. And why shouldn't it be, with a single like Lost, and their amazing voice and good looks, they'll have girls swooning at their every word *ehem ehem*. Well there's 5 of them in Menudo. Chris,Monti,Jose and Emmanuel. In my opinion, Jose and Emmanuel are the cutest, but that's just me, hahahaha.... I'm too lazy to post up the video so go check it out yourself.

Hope you enjoyed the vid and what not. Check in later.

xoxo,babyJ

Stress makes the mind go whack!

Yeah, to tell you the truth, stress does make the mind go whack! hahahahaha.... muahaahahaha.. blaha blaha. Since today is Friday and there is no school and exams tomorrow, I thought I'd spend some time venting all my stress online.

Right, lets start with Chemistry. I'm lucky if i even get a good failing mark on this test. The reason.... I don't understand a single thing. Yeah uhuh, no one to blame but myself I guess. BM, yeah as I posted before, I'm terrible at it and it gets worse. My class' BM teacher, the darling, said she's cutting our marks if we answer two questions on the same page. Uhuh, yeah it's my fault as she said "Kamu orang tak dengar cakap saya, padan muka awak". yeah in English... "It's your fault for not listening to me, serves you right" So yippedy doo ain't that swell. So far, I'm not confident in any of my subjects. And to think I'm in form 4 and supposed to be studying hard and what not, tsk tsk tsk.

The only highlight about today's exam was the english paper. It was fun, fun, fun. Why? Cause the questions were so general. "Health, my dream house, start a story with...." and all that jazz. Hmmm.... obviously I picked something that I can spin my on web on, so to speak. A topic I could make my own, no strings and borders to follow. The topic was, My Dream House. Maybe i'll type it out and post it sometime, maybe not. It's about my ridiculously awesome "dream" house. as in you can only dream about it, unless you married Brad Pitt or one of the Jonas Brothers, hahaha... Kevin *swoons*

Besides that, Efariza, a few others and I are supposed to come up with a totally fabulous dinner plan for the Photography and videography Club. Oh, we did, that was until hardly anyone signed up. Yeah dilemma much. Reasons given were, owh it's too near SPM, owh it's right after exams. Well my answer, exactly, AFTER exams and it's not that close to SPM. Just one night to take a load off and to have a little fun. Support us form 4's who are trying so hard to put this dinner together. That's all we're asking for. But nooooooo.... we had to go round asking our friends, who are not members to come and support us. We also opened the, what once was farewell dinner, for all STS students. Ahhhhh..... the stress the stress. The best thing is.... we have to deal with the dinner and our exams YAY!!! *note the sarcasm* I just pray and hope things will turn out well on the day after all our hard planning.

Well I feel much better now, so that'll be all for my venting post today. hahahaha... muahahaha...blaha blaha... see I can't stop laughing all of a sudden, the effects stress has on you. That summary I had to do for English paper 1, the schizophrenia, depression and substance abuse. I think after this I might turn out to be all three. hahahahah.......

xoxo, babyJ